Don't let outside confidence deceive you.

I am not so sure if I've already wrote a blog on this subject, however, once again, I feel the need to discuss, this I'd like to do through writing. As I have mentioned I am now in Sixth Form, possibly the hardest period of my life I have endured, and perhaps the hardest I will ever have to endure. I believe it to be quite unfair that the most important, or one of the most important stages in my life seems to be so unenjoyable and difficult. Yes I realise that it should be hard, as life in general has its challenges... However, despite this, I wish it was uplifiting. At the moment, I feel my confidence has stooped to literally nothing, whilst my passion to do well is increasing. Even though this is the case, my motivation is being effected by my confidence, as I suppose it would anyones. How can I possibly motivate myself if I feel the result won't be the aim I was hoping for. I feel results in my work will balance on the wrong side, leaving me struggling. I hate being this negative, but once again, my confidence is a issue which I must learn to ignore. Deep down I know I can do it, looking back at my confidence in GCSE and the results overriding it, I know I can beat my expectations. Many of my peers have said to me, including teachers, "you're doing absolutely fine, don't worry yourself... Take a break from it all" talking about my work. However I don't know what they're basing their comment on, perhaps that is their perception of my results in GCSE, and somehow, they believe A Level will be fine for me. Perhaps not 'fine' but manageable. It's really not manageable with the slightest stretch of the imagination, it is certainly the contrary.