After a long few months full of revision leading up to the exams, I finally feel relaxed. Well, I say that, but tomorrow is the 1st August 2012. This means one thing to me: 'AS' exam results.
At the start of AS, as everyone probably did, I thought to myself: 'the exams are a long way away yet', however, I soon came to discover once Christmas had come and gone reality hit me that the exams were approaching very soon. I gathered this from the numerous exam practises, the mocks and the expressions on people's faces in the library. We received our exam timetables about a month or so before our exams. I was in utter shock at the sight of the dates: History Russian Unit Tuesday 15th May, Philosophy and Ethics (morning) and English Literature (afternoon) on Wednesday 16th May. Those two days of exams were three out of my four 'A'levels done and dusted (apart from History which had another unit). Then I had: Law ELS, History Britain and Ireland Unit and finally Law SOL. I genuinely felt, and still feel my exams didn't go well due to the fact I felt so pressurised by the dates, and some of the questions on the exam paper itself.
As I am a worrier, I am inevitably going to worry about the exam results (as everyone is); I do however believe, as my parents have said: "what is done, is done". I guess, as everyone knows... Only when I open that envelope will my results come to light. I am seriously dreading it.
If I don't do well (which I predict), I honestly don't know yet what 'Plan B' is. Do I stay on and retake my exams? Do I re-sit the year? Do I go elsewhere? I hate making decisions which I feel determine my life. However, people have said to me that 'A'levels aren't the 'make or break'. Life is full of opportunities and endless paths with different outcomes depending on the decisions we make. So perhaps, it's not the end of the world if I look at if from others perspectives. It is a sad fact, but, me being me, I feel these 'A'levels are the deciders for what is to be of my future.
I wish everyone the best of luck come results day, you'll all do great. Especially, my lovely friends as I know how hard you have all tried! If some of you choose to move on before A2, I wish you all the best for the future!
